*WARNING!* May contain disturbing descriptions of graphic violence.

Subj: Anger
Date: 12/3/2000 12:16:09 PM Eastern Standard Time
From: se7en@emailshows.com (The Search For John Doe)
To: drivingmrspacey


To: Det. David Mills
From: John Doe
Subject: Anger

Bravo, Detective. That's the spirit!

I doubt I enjoy my work, any more than Detective Mills would enjoy some time alone with me, in a room without windows. Isn't that true?

How happy would it make you to hurt me, with impunity, David? Do you feel guilty when you admit it? Yes, I know.

We are not so different, are we, after all?

In friendship and admiration,

John

P.S. Funny thing is, I can't stop.
 

Subj: Doctor, heal thyself
Date: 12/4/2000 12:08:12 PM Eastern Standard Time
From: se7en@emailshows.com (The Search For John Doe)
To: drivingmrspacey
Se7en: The Search For John Doe

To: YOU
From: John Doe
Subject: Doctor, heal thyself

I'm sure the geniuses of "forensic psychology" have kept you busy reading reading reading ALL ABOUT ME, haven't they. Does it start to make sense? 

Very good! You just love psychology, don't you. Shall I share a dream had last night?

My good looking boyhood friend Ray Acuff and I have become cannibals. As the base of a cliff near town, on the riverbank, our small, neat pile of bones has begun to grow. One day by surprise we are visited by a family of Indians in a canoe. I hope they will not notice the BONES and the SMELL from the fire but without making any visible fuss they end their visit suddenly and I can see from the look in the mother's eyes that they KNOW. Now I am at the hospital talking to my own father or some face of his. I realize the he knows, too. But he does not seemed shocked or surprised or even particularly interested. He says something blase about "brain PIE" or "thought PIE" being on the cafeteria menu and for a moment I think with shock that he is an Eater too. Then he ignores me. Then I realize that he is not surprised because HE always knew about me. It was what he expected. Woke up tasting FLESH in my mouth and stomach.

Does that help? No? In fact you're MORE CONFUSED THAN WHEN YOU STARTED?

Actually I made it all up. Fooled you, did I?

My point: I AM NOT INSANE.

Admit it honestly. EVERYONE I'VE KILLED was a GAPING SORE, A HUMAN SYMPTOM of a society so sick that only the most radical and invasive surgery can give it any chance of recovery. Admit it.

I'm trying to save a very sick patient, using a remedy prescribed by the creator of the universe. SO WHY ARE YOU TRYING TRY TO STOP ME?


Perhaps, Doctor, you should begin by healing thyself.

The Patient

Subj: no subject
Date: 12/5/2000 12:07:03 PM Eastern Standard Time
From: se7en@emailshows.com (The Search For John Doe)
To: drivingmrspacey

Se7en: The Search For John Doe

To: YOU
From: John Doe
Subject: no subject

what sick ridiculous puppets we are and what a gross little stage we dance on. what fun we have. Not a care in the world. Not knowing that we are NOTHING. We are NOT what was INTENDED. 

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Page 1 Greetings; Love; It breaks my heart; Listen to Me
Page 2 Anger; Doctor, heal thyself; No Subject
Page 3 First lesson; Italian & German; Gluttony; Sloth; Files
Page 4 Greed; Blowing off steam; Never Quit; Let them all talk
Page 5 Lust; Monday Night Football; It's working; Pride; 
Solitary; Be ready for anything
Page 6 Coming Attractions
  
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